There are times in your life, when nothing seems to be going your way.Life becomes pathetic. There are times we feel like tearing our hair out , wondering what is it that you’ve done wrong.We’ve all been through it some time or the other.
As I look back at the low phase in my life, I wish it never comes back to me again. I look at all the tears , the pain, the negativity, the insanity, the confusion, the mess that I was a few days, I wish I could erase it out of my memory forever. It’s hard to even think of it.
Trying to find happiness in my life is difficult some of my friends know this very well. Everyday was a struggle to survive, to smile, to live. Depression had taken its toll. Sometimes I was tensed due to professional front or sometime personal ..things were there always .But a chance of luck saved me. It was not mere luck. It was more than that.
Someone made me realized something which really went inside.
Today, I am more hopeful, optimistic about everything in life. I believe, that when one door closes, another will open up soon.
I always took friends for granted. I loved them, no doubt. But it was now, in these past few months that I’ve come to know how much they mean to me. They made me laugh, when my eyes were swollen with tears. They were an ear to my talks and helped me come out of all the mess. They made me forget everything that I had been through. I treasure them.
I had lost myself. ‘Why am I like this now? And not the way I used to before?’, is what I constantly kept asking myself. Some started me thinking as a budle of problems and some think i llike to live like a depressed person..but that was not truth. But life changes you and a change is necessary.
Today, for some reason, I feel I’ve found my self again. There was a problem that I like to share my thoughts my beliefs and my small tension to everyone and people started taking me as a box of problems..and. But since few days, things have started to get back to normal. Yeah there are those constant ups and downs. But still, life’s been kinder.
I don’t know how to express in words, how happy I feel today to be here. I never thought I’d make it through. I look at how I was, a few months back and what I am now and I feel so happy and grateful to god.
I have so much to write, but don’t know where to start from. I am so happy today. I am almost close to tears.
I don’t know where I’ll be or how things would be tomorrow. Things can get better , they may become worse, who knows? Life is so unpredictable. But I hope for a better day. All I know, is that all these experiences of the past have made me stronger.
