Problems & happiness -Part of life

There are times in your life, when nothing seems to be going your way.Life becomes pathetic. There are times we feel like tearing our hair out , wondering what is it that you’ve done wrong.
We’ve all been through it some time or the other.

As I look back at the low phase in my life, I wish it never comes back to me again. I look at all the tears , the pain, the negativity, the insanity, the confusion, the mess that I was a few days, I wish I could erase it out of my memory forever. It’s hard to even think of it.

Trying to find happiness in my life is difficult some of my friends know this very well. Everyday was a struggle to survive, to smile, to live. Depression had taken its toll. Sometimes I was tensed due to professional front or sometime personal ..things were there always .But a chance of luck saved me. It was not mere luck. It was more than that.

Someone made me realized something which really went inside.

Today, I am more hopeful, optimistic about everything in life. I believe, that when one door closes, another will open up soon.
I always took friends for granted. I loved them, no doubt. But it was now, in these past few months that I’ve come to know how much they mean to me. They made me laugh, when my eyes were swollen with tears. They were an ear to my talks and helped me come out of all the mess. They made me forget everything that I had been through. I treasure them.

I had lost myself. ‘Why am I like this now? And not the way I used to before?’, is what I constantly kept asking myself. Some started me thinking as a budle of problems and some think i llike to live like a depressed person..but that was not truth. But life changes you and a change is necessary.

Today, for some reason, I feel I’ve found my self again. There was a problem that I like to share my thoughts my beliefs and my small tension to everyone and people started taking me as a box of problems..and. But since few days, things have started to get back to normal. Yeah there are those constant ups and downs. But still, life’s been kinder.

I don’t know how to express in words, how happy I feel today to be here. I never thought I’d make it through. I look at how I was, a few months back and what I am now and I feel so happy and grateful to god.

I have so much to write, but don’t know where to start from. I am so happy today. I am almost close to tears.

I don’t know where I’ll be or how things would be tomorrow. Things can get better , they may become worse, who knows? Life is so unpredictable. But I hope for a better day. All I know, is that all these experiences of the past have made me stronger.

happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!

oi...happy birthday to me...happy birthday to me...happy birthday to meeeeeeee....happy birthday to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:))

Actually i got the sanp today itself but dont get confused my bday was 25th of last month .

Really hope things go as i wish them to b. Prayers...for my own happy life ahead...lolz!.

God - Take me away

Some things in life don’t change no matter how hard and fast you try to run away from them. Memories just don’t go away , they stick within you . They choke you, they kill you, they tear you apart but they just don’t go away. The worst part is when you find yourself all alone in the jungle of memories trying to tackle emotions attached to memory one by one. All that you are left with thinking that moment is why is this being done to me? For what am I being subjected to this torture?
Your cries become a laughing stock of others. Your feelings don’t seem to carry any weight for the one you miss day and night. And when the loneliness makes you just sit down in your bed facing the dark sky and lonliness surrounding the room, you sit there numb, unshaken, untouched with only only one thing that shows some form of life...Tears and only tears!

They roll down your cheeks and the heart craves for some love. All that you are left with is to fight it out alone and wait for the night to pass with the hope of a happier morning. All why’s get hidden behind those memories becoz they are too close to your heart to be parted with.

Then you reach a point where to want to so badly hug someone and start a new life forgiving all that went wrong. You want sometin nice, sometin special to happen to you that very moment so badly, you search for him deep down memories within memories till you realise that it’s only you who cries every night, it’s only your who craves to be loved, it’s only you who wants a companion, it’s only you who is misses someone, it’s only you who in still so much in love with those memories.

And then you shrink with fear as you ask yourself why am I not missed as much as I miss someone? You keep asking becoz you are too shocked to believe that even love can do this bad to you. And you still spend every night choked with those memories and a disbelief that someone still doesn’t realise the intensity of your love with such horrific unbearable pain. And then you just ask one thing from God - Take me away!

Sometimes Say what you want to say

There is nothing constant in this world, no emotion, no situation nothing at all, life has its own twists and turns, one should be ready to face the challenges, all that agreed. Though I am aware of the fact I still wonder why people change. Especially our dear ones. And I have to fight with them to make them understand me. They change especially when we need them the most, people you least expect it from, people who mean so much to you. Its very strange. All you want is the person to comprehend what you did, is that too much to ask for?

Sometimes, you need to and you should still say...somethings...Even if it freaks out the other person or scares them...even if you have to stand on your feet with your ego under the soles...even when your worst fears might come true...even at the possibility of completely being misunderstood, judged etc. etc....

But I think sometimes, its just all right to empty your heart instead of negotiating with your feelings and putting everything under the covers with tags of "okay", "fine","no issues" and theek theek hoga ...dont do it to make it exception....never mind.
Sometimes, just put a break to all the good thoughts or the right thoughts . Sometimes, say what you want to say!

Random thoughts..bore day

1. I am Bored, in office . (as always i dont like to come office :P)
2. I want to change my job. Asap.
3. Today I will try to leave office soon ! yes yes yes!!
4. I just read a beautiful blog… of a fellow blogger… trust me.. the most beautiful things in life are the ones which we take for granted… and worry for the stupid intricacies of life.
5. Some friends went to watch muvi ..Sarkar raj..waiting for their reviews...then will watch it.
6. I am feeling alone.
7. I really feel that there is a need for me to prune down the number of friends I have. I have too many… sounds bad… but it’s a fact (many to whom i dont say hi even !!)
8. I want to have momos , manchurian and pizza…
9. I am missing a friend… really am. J
10. I hate the fact that I am so senti…not that much .... but yet I feel that its my biggest strength..
11. Today I will be alone in my PG...hoping to get good food to eat. (becoz most of the time its not ..the basic essentials for life is not in my PG).
12.I need to change my PG .
13. I am wondering how i will download pics from camera and send to my uncle.
14. My dear sis is getting married soon … I am so happy for her.... got another reason to shop ;-)
15. I am wondering …. is it possible for someone to have more than one best friend??? A bit confused :P
16. I wonder when I will get my first comment!!!
17. I want to gain some… and very soon too…
18.Tomorrow is sunday ..but i have to come office again :(
19.I dont know why i am writing all this crap.... :P.

I've learned

Fewdays back while reading an article, I found these beautiful lines and thought to share with you all. It has a deep meaning inside.

I’ve learned -that there are people who love you dearly,

but just don’t know how to show it.

I’ve learned - that just because someone

doesn’t love you the way you want them to,

doesn’t mean they don’t love you all they can.

I’ve learned - that we don’t have to change friends

if we understand that friends change.

I’ve learned - that two people can look

at the exact same thing

and see something totally different

I’ve learned -that just because two people argue,

it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.

And just because they don’t argue,

it doesn’t mean they do.

~Anonymous

Some things just don't need a title ;-)

There are very few feelings which really make you feel very happy, satisfied and complete from inside :

Initially we were strangers , overtime became friends , in spite of the unknown fear,
my heart is going through...a feeling that is very early, very strange, very beautiful!
The wait is becoming long, and the bond is growing strong,
It doesn't seem any more wrong...and i want it to be there till my last breath.

Many times even a small thought of pass days brings cute innocent smile .... small things brings great happiness.
May God bless everyone with these small things throughout their life .

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This post was supposed to post on 4th Jan 08''

At times, there was so much to say, but I did not get the chance. Some times, you looked in my eyes...waiting for me to say something, But all that I could do was just look at you. Many times, I wanted you to hold me..but you were just so very busy in chores. At times, when you held me I felt the moment should never pass.
But, all wishes never come true and I know that because of you. The more I wanted you to be there for me, the more the distance grew. There were possibilities for us to change...All that was happening between us..but we both just..didnt noticed the enlarging distance between us . Now, as I sip a coffee, I often go back in time ? Do you realize too, all that happened was wrong? Sometimes, I wonder, should we give ourselves one more chance and see if our love for one another is still strong.


Today 25th Jan 08"

You made me realize you are here with me in every moment of my life ....happy to have such heavenly feeling :)